I have read a lot of posts about the new year to come this week. Some were heartbreaking, some were reflective, and some were hopeful. This one is somewhere in between.
2011 was a mixed bag for us.
While I think of 2010 as worse year because of our miscarriage, 2011 had its own set of sorrows. We lost His Royal Fabulousness's mom too young in July. We had 2 failed IUIs. We hit our two-year TTC mark, without a take-home baby to show for it.
But, 2011 did have some highlights. DH started a new job after being laid off. I started this blog. Mel at Stirrup Queens hired me for my first BlogHer article. Best of all, we wrapped up the year with a plan for IVF and a trip to Aruba. All in all, I think we are ending on a high note.
But, when it comes to 2012, I have tempered expectations. I am not going to say, "This will be our year!" Of course I hope that is true, but I have learned during this process that there just aren't any guarantees. So, instead, I am going to hope for improvements. These may be small improvements, like getting another freelance writing gig, or they may be large, like finally having a healthy, full term pregnancy. But whatever they are, I hope that we experience some events that push us in a positive direction.
For now, I have a whole bottle of champagne, with my name on it.