Sunday, November 27, 2011

Put It Directly In My Veins

Forgive me if this post is a little stream of consciousness today.

I have decided that blogging (and blog reading) is like crack, heroin, or nicotine. It is a very addictive substance. I find myself craving it daily. I read blogs and brainstorm ideas all the time. Whenever I stumble on something inspiring I say to myself, "Would that make a good blog post?" or "Is anyone else interested in that but me?" It has somehow filled a need inside of me that I didn't really realize I had. I mentioned to hubby over the weekend that I somehow feel lighter, happier, and more focused than I have in months. I am giving writing the credit, even if it is just a coincidence.

Although at the heart of the issue, I blog for myself. I would do so even if no one was reading. But damn it feels nice to get so many new people reading and commenting, along with my trusted buddies who have been reading since the beginning. However, I started to sweat and panic when I realized the commenting blitz of ICLW is now over for the month. I am afraid I will go into comment withdrawal. I check my blog A LOT to see if my number of followers has increased, and to watch my counter click upwards. I might as well slap my veins and beg for a hit. Am I the only one who is obsessed enough to do this? Who's with me?

Really, this is a thank you post to all the other bloggers out there. It has been so amazing to read the stories of so many women, with whom I have this terrible commonality. Often through intense pain, so many of you are witty, irreverent, loving, and kind. Thank you for feeding my addiction and inspiring me to keep writing, and keep laughing. I will keep reading and writing on your blogs, and hopefully you will do the same.

Pinky swear?

14 comments:

  1. I can totally relate! I am becoming as obsessed with blogging as I was with TTC! (well maybe not that obsessed) I love to see my numbers go up and if I have new followers! It is so fun!

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  2. LOL! Time to come out of lurking.... I didn't do ICLW this month, but saw your blog on there are began catching up on your story. Thanks for making me laugh with this post, I love it! :)

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  3. I'm a junky too. I actually see that my mood is a direct reflection of my number of page views. LOL

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  4. Why stop with the end of ICLW? I fully intend on continuing to follow your blog and commenting on all posts. After all, someone has to enable the addiction ;)

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  5. YES. I'm totally addicted, too. I think of blog ideas all the time and write posts in my head if I'm not at the computer. I won't be going anywhere--I'm here for good to comment!

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  6. Yup, I'm obsessed too!!! I'm always looking for new blogs too. I even subscribe to a bunch that are not TTC related.

    I promise to stick around too!!!

    I don't get much activity from ICLW so I may not do it anymore. Most of my comments are from my readers who follow me and read my blog regularly.

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  7. Completely addicted, I almost wish there wasn't an app for my phone because I'm a little too obsessed! If you shoot me up I'll shoot you up :)

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  8. I'll tie on your tourniquet, honey, if you tie on mine.

    Is that going too far with the drug references? Because I do feel like my blog is my crack, which is good because food used to be my crack and I would much rather feed my addiction with blogs over burritos.

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  9. I dunno - a good burrito is worth dying for (says the former California resident) :)

    Thanks for all the support ladies. Let's keep shooting up!

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  10. I never even noticed it was ICLW week. LOL how's that for a kicker? I'm a blognut. I love to read blogs as it means I too show that common bond with so many others. I love reading your blog in particular.

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  11. Blogging has helped me through my infertility in an infinite number of ways. I just love it too. :) And there's another comment for ya. More blogging drugs for your veins. FEELS GOOD!!

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  12. I'm totally with you!
    I started blogging as some kind of self-help thing. And now I hit refresh on my wordpress dashboard countless times each evening - even when I haven't posted in a couple of days and it's highly unlikely that I get new readers or commenters.
    And on the other side, it's just as bad: I'm addicted to reading IF blogs - and pretty annoyed that my wordpress "reader" doesn't seem to work with most of the blogspot blogs I started to follow this past ICLW.

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  13. Yeah Wordpress and Blogger don't like each other :( I just set myself up with emails from a bunch of sites instead (including yours!) :)

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